Thursday, April 26, 2007

Depression

Several weeks ago, I got a phone call asking me to teach a class on dealing with depression at an upcoming women's conference. I was diagnosed with depression ten years ago this coming fall. I have been doing a lot of reading in preparation for this lesson I'll be teaching. I also have been feeling more depressed than usual lately, and I keep wondering if this is so that I'll have some fresh examples to use in my class. In spite of everything I know about depression, I still can't seem to snap myself out of feeling this way. Not that I would expect anyone else to be able to do that, but who really holds themselves to the same charitable standard as their neighbor? Last Friday morning Adam was gone at a friend's house and as soon as I put Esther down for her morning nap, I curled up in my own bed. I was feeling really miserable, and I knew that to feel better, I needed to do some of the housework that was getting me down. That is why I headed straight to bed and called my mom. We talked, and I cried, and we laughed and by the end I was loading cups and plates and silverware into the dishwasher. I probably need to call her again, though, because as soon as I post this, I'm headed back to bed.

11 comments:

Dan said...

Hey Andrea, don't give up.

becky said...

andrea, you are one of my most favorite people on earth and i always wish the best in life for you. if you ever need help with the housework, i'd be happy to help (i'll even do dishes 'cuz i love ya so much!!) hang in there!

Jess said...

I can totally relate to all that. Maybe its the weather or the aliment of the planets who knows. So would it be ok if I came over and helped you get a few things done? It would get me out of my house so I have something to do and I could hang out with a great person so really you would be doing me a favor. How does Monday sound? We can talk about picture stuff and get some things done...I'll even make lunch or dinner so let me know.

kendahl said...

I'm with Dan on the not-giving-up :)

Jenny said...

Andrea, I just want you to know I think you are an absolutely amazing person. I always felt happier just talking with you. You have a way of making people feel comfortable and laugh. Thanks for being such an example to me. You probably had no clue of how much I watched you and listened so carefully to what you had to say. I was always amazed with how you set such amazing goals and then accomplished them! I think about you often and try to do things that "I know Andrea would do." Except I did vote for Bush. Sorry for the novel. I love you and just wanted you to know how much I look up to you. Jenny

LL said...

Hey hoser, you should have called me! We could have wallowed in our messiness together. :-)
A poem: http://www.usdreams.com/DontQuit172.html. I had this poem on a bookmark before my sister died. After she died I couldn't find it anymore, but I always remembered the last lines: So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit, it's when things seem worst that you must not quit. Call me if you need someone to come drag you out of bed. It will give me a reason to change out of my sweats and take a shower. Or I'll come stinky in sweats. Either way.
Love you-hang in there!

Carly said...

Answering your q left on my blog post. Abilene (about 2-2 1/2 hrs west of Dallas). We are coming to Ann Arbor for a couple of weeks the second week of May, yeh! Nate has to do some work there and I get to play and see friends. And I agree with Dan, don't give up!

Potato Girl said...

Hey, I made a new blog about depression, so this one won't be so depressing anymore...I'll keep all the depressing stuff in one place: http://depressionclub.blogspot.com

Larry Dewey said...

It is interesting that when we are depressed we are never charitable to ourselves in our thoughts. Gives us a clue that those thoughts are not from God. Remember Mr. Mom? I love the total mess the house gets in while he is depressed. Love, Dad

Potato Girl said...

Mr. Mom is such a great movie...I just wish the music would start playing and I could have a montage where I whip myself, the kids, and the house into shape like he does!

Amber said...

Hugs Andrea!! i love ya!!