I have some "allowance" ($20 a month, baby) and birthday money saved up, and I've been spending an undisclosable amount of time (too much) browsing etsy.com for things I want to buy for my room. It has come down to a search for my favorite wood and linoleum block prints. I was talking to an artist friend about my search yesterday, and I showed her a few of my favorites. She said, "oh, you could easily make these yourself." No, I couldn't. "Yes, it would not be hard," she assured me. Later in the day, I continued thinking about this. She may not realize that I can't draw--that I'm not good with detail work, or with my hands. It never in a million years would have occurred to me that I could actually make these things which I admire so much. I have wished I could make such things, but not with any hope of actually being able to do it.
This morning my thoughts had taken a new direction. As I drove to school I saw things everywhere I looked that I would like to make prints of. I was thinking about the print I ordered last night, and how much I love it, and how it is just a simple symbolic, not literal, representation of a beautiful landscape. I might be able to do symbolic. The prints that I am most drawn to, besides landscapes, are trees, some flowers, and lots of abstract geometrical designs. Tonight as I continue my search through the print makers selling on etsy, I can see how willing I am to pay for circles and squares, if they are carved into a block and printed on good paper with vibrant ink. I am thinking, I can draw circles and squares. Heck, I doodle designs all the time on my papers. What I cannot draw is a cat that looks like a cat. The cats I draw today look exactly like the cats I drew when I was four years old. Exactly. Dan sits in church and draw things for the girls that look just like those things. Not me. I guess I have been thinking I could only create visual art through photography, since I can't draw. But I have very little interest in technology and gadgets and figuring out how to use the intricate machine which is a camera. What I want to be able to do is somehow capture and record the beautiful things I see around me: the forests and beaches in Oregon; all of my favorite trees in Ann Arbor; the high deserts of sagebrush and lava rock in Idaho; glorious sunsets.
Maybe I can.